
“... poetry is not a luxury. It is a vital necessity of our existence. It forms the quality of the light within which we predicate our hopes and dreams toward survival and change, first made into language, then into idea, then into more tangible action. Poetry is the way we help give name to the nameless so it can be thought. The farthest horizons of our hopes and fears are cobbled by our poems, carved from the rock experiences of our daily lives.” --Audre Lorde

1.
First, choose a word…paper, word, lipstick…the sky this morning breaking through before new fall light, before snow… tile, face, sound…books piled around, the Marx readers are always red. Red. Like Communism. Or Bricks. Or Christmas. Fire engine red. Infra-red. True-red. Apple Red. Red Cross. Red Herring. Pirates. Stop.
2.
The record of a language painted, textured, smeared in the history of presence, forgotten or pushed aside, its pages crumbling, turning to ash and flame. Can you remember this moment already happening, again.
3.
European revolutionaries in 1848 adopt their color, wave red flags. Later it becomes the color for Communism in
4.
“Reach out and sneer: Dem radicals speak to the Red States” The Register
“After reading this article, it occurs to me that Blue America sees Red America the same way Red America sees
Also, both places are dusty and full of oil.”
--punningpundit.com
5.
The red dragon on the flag of
6.
And Redcoats. Marching through the woods. Not so camouflaged. Or the Red Badge of Courage. Stay and fight, or run away, the color of blood, and war. Or the courage of not war, other-than-war, the red badge of a future that does something different from history.
7.
Sunday, March 11. Two people (women) try to drive across some rail road tracks and don’t make it. The get around one train and collide with another. They die. Trains are held up for hours. Our 8pm train is cancelled. Getting hit by a train doesn’t get you where you are trying to go any faster. Two teens trying a challenge? Two drunk women not paying attention? Two people with music playing too loud to hear the second train? What about the flashing red lights, the white and red striped arm that you have to drive around strategically if you are trying to beat the train. Two mothers no longer waiting for two someones to come back home.
8.
Blood no longer looks like blood when the bodies from which it falls are mutilated and destroyed so completely.
9.
“Two
“”Not all the kids wearing red clothing are committing crimes,” Captain O’Rourke said.”
“Due to its extreme nature, wearing red clothing during a negotiation or confrontation is never the best choice.”
“In the
10.
The set sun sends back rays reflected against the sky the last moment of a spring day constructed out of time.
11.
Red and yellow hammer and sickle logo tee: $16.95 on merch-bot.com. “The logo…makes a bold statement or no statement at all, depending on the attitude of you, the wearer. This is a must for the back of every angry youth on the planet.” (note: the “logo” is on the front of the shirt, but I guess angry youths across the world can wear this shirt “on their backs.”
12.
To invoke or embody. To call a color your own. The smell of dry grass as the summer wears on and ice cream trucks slow their rounds through streets ghostly without the sound of children. Different trucks, in different shades of cool and refreshing.
13.
A wedding in
Chinese New Year.
A Hmong funeral.
14.
She said she has emotional memory. She sees a scene from her childhood and knows, feels exactly how she felt at that moment, watching from the window, for example, the look of the street below. He says he remembers details. Every number of every player’s baseball card from the collection he had as a kid. I remember only bits and pieces of images, some of which seem to be in my mind because I saw them in photographs. According to my mental record, I couldn’t have had much of a childhood. But on the contrary, it was full of events and emotion. I can at the moment recall the huge red sun dropping in the sky in summer when we rode in the boat across the lake, returning from an impromptu dinner picnic on the small island in Muscamoot bay. Always that huge sun seeming to stand still in our western vision, keeping the evening sky lit and timeless.
15.
A moment, spatial, layered, a spot of time etched perfectly into this immediate suggestion that generic history is peppered with particular drops of
VIII.
She said she has emotional memory. She sees a scene from her childhood and knows, feels exactly how she felt at that moment, watching from the window, for example, the look of the street below. He says he remembers details. Every number of every player’s baseball card from the collection he had as a kid. I remember only bits and pieces of images, some of which seem to be in my mind because I saw them in photographs. According to my mental record, I couldn’t have had much of a childhood. But on the contrary, it was full of events and emotion. I can at the moment recall the huge red sun dropping in the sky in summer when we rode in the boat across the lake, returning from an impromptu dinner picnic on the small island in Muscamoot bay. Always that huge sun seeming to stand still in our western vision, keeping the evening sky lit and timeless.
fluorescent light blocks out the dusk that threatens to put us all to sleep, notice broken clouds grey in part illuminated in part almost pink above the tree dusk creeping around the clock while we try to fit in every story before parting. what evening light comes between vertical blinds, at an angle, blowing with air from the fan, clanging plastic blinds disturb spontaneous conversation, or a question, addressed out loud, while what was clearly lit by dry warm sun all afternoon turns soft like under the gaze of a particular lens, and buildings melt together with their contexts, while we listen to explanations of mysterious stories convoluted by language and movement in multiple directions, like on days I pack bags with folders and books from places all across town.
the broken clouds remind me to sleep fast, run slow, learn to wade through the moving dusk
the plush must be worn away
--lyn hejinian, from My Life
green leather, felted, ragged, having forgotten any specific time of day. the photo, of the girl, on her couch. light damages the color, (dis)articulation. an image disconnected from its own story. wears thin like the tales you give of someone’s history, and call them my own. the indeterminate color of overused age. it can only be this, without a fuzzy understanding of where we once were.
disturbing color and reminding her
above all
listening for it –
we later…
and the layered ducks
the can, falling over trees, in order
for aggression and religiosity
to fold
inward over particular participants…
strike
the yard is your resting place
and broken layered green
a visual dog calls out
for compensation discomfort
or my inexact concrete pounds
explode earthly change
and flowers
in opposition to
across from the morning
hauling chemical abuse
the sink falling from the wall
slowly they separatechewing the pipe
before we realize electricity –
cars enable sight
orange buckets of rain
one drop holding fast to the lens of her red glasses
every morsel crumbling to the bottom of the foil bag
intricate beaded sparkling stones lying at my feet
ink falls in straight and curled lines across a day
tile floor spilled thick with cherry coke
the gel pen lingers on canvas, sparkle language flows
dreams of an adult
thinking she is a child
thoughts – characters – animals
in vivid detail
memory stored inefficient – computer development of memory – evolution in world –persona – characterization – original creatures – memory moving through time
instruction – patterns – separating parts – fish from bowl
child recalls an event
traumatic etc. memories
movement between child – adult – understanding – language
language poetry goes disney
the way you say vs what is said
or
the articulation of self in context
a shot, a highway,
and the eggplant shaded,
a frog, mingle around
the billboard –
await jose
and scratch at the dirt
plastic lice bisects an uncle skewed
blind dust
toil asparagus lice
skid blind
what have you
uncle
botanical blackbird
is the same as
or circulate among
electric
blind uncles spend light
a botanical apparatus skews
the well-groomed toil
dust skids across
the image of a blackbird
bisecting lice
grass
infinity
what you can’t see
smell
asparagus
asparagus dust
and the mention of
skid
skew
a blackbird
what the blind uncles couldn’t have known
toil botanical
lice and light spent
bisect the grain
of plastic wood
“…since the main challenge of contemporary life rested not in going out and identifying the “there,” which was everywhere, but in discovering a “here” that wasn’t “there,” for this “here” was slippery and always seemed to be somewhere else” (21).
“…we continued to examine the situation from all points of reference while we were still inside that very collision and even after we escaped it, which in actuality we never did, since we were perpetually moving from one near-collision to the next, or finding ourselves in situations of existence which, no matter how hard we tried, made no sense at all. This sensation of whiplash suggested that we were moving much faster than ourselves when in actuality we could barely keep up with ourselves, and when in fact our generation was, by all popular accounts, going nowhere” (23).
in response to / a conversation with DuPlessis' DRAFTS
4 (IN) Which
"How white "all color" the color / of luminous death"
white death radiates unleavened
lifting cities elide the spectrum
of language spoken
"articulate a blank blanked space, a dotted dotty line"
moves by way of perception on a page of noted / pieces flake
onto, fall off the edge, eliminate margins what refuses here
to circulate circumnavigate
the binary
"each line is an inter; there is no action"
interstice / interstitial
in which there is no (character, plot, life-changing ring tones glittering) but think "otherhow" (yes I know you are listening)
digress in order to depend on sentiment -- in other words the shimmering ink spreads under the puddle dissolves each word
"inside the paper of the page / the iris watermark I suck"
" a brush flick of / shimmer" (I swear I used this word before turning the page)
"amid which nuzzle worms and shaking dew."
"cherry words" sprinkled over salad homemade dressing tells each story of how we came to be clever ugly cruel each crack in the sidewalk undisturbed (I can see the words before they appear control the page with my thoughts) patterns reflect moods of sky and social action
"on which words could be feeding the cow / inside the ruminant middle."
but the images clash here as I trip over the waves of possible action beheld in subsequent syllables others following others following ourselves folding our words into the palms of hands de-coded, uncolored
"the whole structure of transcendence" (show this)
BOLD BRAVE
a nice image is, simply, nice
show the juxtaposition of intersection and blasting
simultaneous. Require the detail of specific spots of memory
a scene I have constructed to pull toward
this present
an instant horizon imagines how to change what has already
but may not have to
always
to blast this or she
was never listening
when the original events were told
in verse
form
(pause: how to work in space of breaking
out of this pale face)
(the words fall off the edges flakes slipping away to the floor or where
blow around float away)
Your mind and you are our Sargasso Sea,
London has swept about you this score years
And bright ships left you this or that in fee:
Ideas, old gossip, oddments of all things,
Strange spars of knowledge and dimmed wares of price.
Great minds have sought you- lacking someone else.
You have been second always. Tragical?
No. You preferred it to the usual thing:
One dull man, dulling and uxorious,
One average mind- with one thought less, each year.
Oh, you are patient, I have seen you sit
Hours, where something might have floated up.
And now you pay one. Yes, you richly pay.
You are a person of some interest, one comes to you
And takes strange gain away:
Trophies fished up; some curious suggestion;
Fact that leads nowhere; and a tale for two,
Pregnant with mandrakes, or with something else
That might prove useful and yet never proves,
That never fits a corner or shows use,
Or finds its hour upon the loom of days:
The tarnished, gaudy, wonderful old work;
Idols and ambergris and rare inlays,
These are your riches, your great store; and yet
For all this sea-hoard of deciduous things,
Strange woods half sodden, and new brighter stuff:
In the slow float of differing light and deep,
No! there is nothing! In the whole and all,
Nothing that's quite your own.
Yet this is you. - -
behind yellow ink
shiver
break this cold spell
through the language designed to inform
identity
or one’s place
in regard to many places
at the carnival, observe entangled color
and sparkle
marginalized images circulate
fit into pieces
of a modern suggestion
between spaces of syntax
and topography
the observer breathes crowded
air, dreams of the arctic,
finds letters dismembered
shuffled into a pile
and begins to assemble
the hysterical moment captures
bliss instinct particle of snow lodged between
scenes remembered
not eating, sleeping, an instance of
trauma cannot break through
the precipitation, a tuesday, a repetition
of intent hidden under the lid of mind
comes just before, or after the blue
haze of future caught through past
unmoving
still
Such pleasant office have we long pursued
Incumbent o’er the surface of past time
--W. Wordsworth, The Prelude, Book IV
because for each piece of snow
that fell against
on a day
when I was 11
a moment now like old crystal
the light hits
through the afternoon window
they were married in 1905
mittens on string threaded
through the arms of a
coat
limbs
impervious to everything
winter
Brutes abstract not.
--John Locke, An Essay Concerning Human Understanding
the way that I can put each number
against the cool of your skin
lingering above
cotton
the ratio matching nature
greek symbols across the sidewalk
like hopscotch for theorists
explaining each dimension
of yard grass limb
stretching over moments
from the very first
when you stood, brown corduroy
and i listed the mathematics
of inclination
or a train moving
progress
the movie was called
cowboys cowboys
and guns
mayhem
lacking civic (drink responsibly)
the sheer movement into nothingness
an explosion
violent speed
of apocalypse
if the sheriff can’t save us
this time
motion and the body mov’d.”
--David Hume, A Treatise of Human Nature
your marble sphere my box
dimensional
the words laid one on top
across
broken letters
an articulation of history through space
on the page
who was defeated
whose artifacts
weapons
kiss me present tense against shining marble
does not move
its form holding together
molecules
straddling
how much means
across letters objects
viewed from every direction
will not simply show and tell
an offering
‘i shed before walking out the door’ she writes in hopes that he stays this time, that he comes back that he begins to breathe a sense of place, fills his lungs with sitting still and listening. there are birds here. a river. a lake if you attempt the stroll. ‘this is my intention’ she thinks. ‘to distinguish you from the flowers. to paint you into this everyday.’ you breathe deep, deep enough to hold distant places in your lungs so deep those places fill your eyes, you don’t see her skin shiver before you turn into the heat, into the horizon, ask for more and return with nothing, or do you return, or does she imagine it, next to the kerosene lamp, pieces of pottery at her feet, watching what she remembers of your skin, revolving.
be in the moment, present tense, first word best word, a rose is a rose is all you can do is start here, keep starting, consider this, and consider...
writing having fallen off toward the end of a semester... a bind not simply double but multiple...which moment in which what occurs that may or not be writing. to write, to think, to read...to do homework and write something else...
begin this year again. writing. there is little hope in this present/future tense for publishing... no single pieces, no whole books. dusty manuscripts. lovely and friendly rejection notes. this accumulation of historical (all moments until this one particular, every particular moment turning into history, into memory if i could remember other than this, single, instant), pieces of, unmoving, seeming circular in one single space.
begin again. continue to begin. continue with the single instant.
Mirror framing blue lines a circle swirl of green can you see how this moves like an image reflected like present and past a single moment the tip of green a wave frames white or transparent so called glass background of squares circles she leans her head away from so called glass reflects pale skin a single strand of hair (yellow) tinged cannot see through this at all red like the horizon of